Welcome to take 2340981 of me starting another blog

As many of you already know I’ve decided to pack up my life in Montreal and move to the city of Drake, the Raptors, and 6Dad, Norm Kelly. I’ve officially moved to Toronto.

What am I doing here?

Well my dear friends, I have decided to pursue my dreams of going into advertising and have thus decided to return to school and will be working on my advertising portfolio with the help of Miami Ad School.

But Shirley didn’t you just get your CPA?

After long hours of public accounting, countless hours of studying for the CFE, I do in fact have my CPA title.

So how exactly did I get to this point in my life where I’m making a career switch?

“It’s actually a long story, I don’t want to bore you with it,” I said shyly to the handsome stranger.

“Well I just missed my connecting flight and the next flight is tomorrow morning. You could say I’ve got a lot of time for you,” he said coyly with a wink.

“Well before I tell you all of this, could I at least get your name?” I blushed as those words came out of my mouth. My, oh my, I’ve never been that forward before. 

The beautiful stranger replied, “It’s Timothée, Timothée Chalamet.”

OK NOW that we’ve got my Timothée Chalamet obsession out of the bag. Let’s get on with the real juice. 

My whole life I followed the safe path and made calculated choices that allowed me to stray slightly from being a perfect Asian daughter. For example, I had to play an hour of piano everyday but would start to play at 4:15 and end at 5:00. This calculated decision allowed me to play for 45 minutes but based on the timing of the end it kinda felt like I played an hour to my parents.

When I was in cegep I studied health sciences but I always had an itch to go into advertising so when it came time to apply to university I chose to study management. In my head I thought, “well I didn’t become a doctor or a lawyer, business has some type of math right?” I mean I don’t think my parents would have allowed me to study arts at the age of 18. Management would be the next choice that my parents would not get a heart attack over.

Early on in my university career, I got a job offer in accounting and instead of choosing my own destiny I let this job offer dictate my major and career. I studied accounting and I justified that accounting was a technical skill and that I could still go into advertising after university because I felt it was more of an intuitive career. Fast forward to now I’ve worked 3 years in audit and have obtained my CPA, but I never entered advertising like I thought I would.

If you’ve ever been in a room of accountants, especially auditors, you’ll realize that we’re some of the most self loathing individuals. We love complaining about ourselves. Imagine working long hours complaining about it, but then your friend starts bragging about their longer hours. Like girlllll, what is there to brag about!?!?! Behind the complaining though, there are many us that do like our jobs but we still complain. I don’t want to be that person who’s in a profession they’ve chosen but complains about this choice. Don’t get me wrong there are many things I love about audit. I love the people I worked with, the mentorship I received, and the fact that you’re constantly learning. As a true millennial though, I felt like the passion just wasn’t there.

We make it seem like one decision dictates our whole life. Maybe I’m a late bloomer but when I was 18 deciding my future, did I really know what future me wanted? I didn’t. At that age I was too busy thinking about boys, trying to fit in, and pretending that I was an adult. Funny thing is I probably made more adult choices at 18 than now. At the tender age of 25, which was the age my mother got married, I still feel like a kid.

I believe that life is just a series of actions and of choices that we make. You make a decision based on the information you have at that moment, if down the line you realize that the outcome wasn’t as you’d hoped for, you go on and make another decision to steer you into the right direction. Life should be that simple, but we overcomplicate things because if you’re anything like me you overthink every little decision you make. You try to find the answer that has the least consequences, but what is life if we’re not constantly learning from our choices.

The moment I stepped into the “real world”, I started to experience my quarter life crisis. My life felt like a movie that I was watching but I was not directing it; I had no control over the plot. That’s a terrible feeling. I’m someone who wants to feel in control of my destiny, somebody who is able to curate their life and not just sit there and be like “UGH why isn’t this me? When am I going to make it? etc.”

My biggest goal in life is to live life with intention.

So instead of being a bystander in my own life I made the active decision of going into advertising. Now here I am at this point in my life where I’m starting new at 25. And Hey! if it doesn’t work out, well when I get to that fork in the road, I’ll just make another decision. 

Life isn’t about finding yourself.  Life is about creating yourself.

Now finally, why this new blog?

Many of you may know of my old blog that I share with my dear friend, Jenny, saumignon, which hasn’t been updated since 2017. This blog kind of lost its way and who knows maybe Jenny and I will revive it some day. Others may know of my punny blog, mybadideas, but this blog is focused on my bad ideas.

I started a new blog in a way to signify a new beginning for myself, to shed my old self. If I’m starting again IRL, then it’s only fitting that I should start anew URL. My goal with this blog is to share my journey of self growth and to just blog about my millennial mishaps. Think of me as your friend that you met during your high school days on a fan forum.

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